It's been almost two months since we said goodbye to Natalie. We miss her so much. It feels like someone is missing from our family. A piece of my heart is in Bulgaria, and my heart aches. Big sigh. Watching this video brings some comfort, and yet it also reminds me of how little care... love... stimulation... and attention she is receiving as she sits in her crib day in and day out. Her orphanage may appear to be one of the best as I have showed you in previous pictures, but we know she is not getting what she needs to thrive. Here is a video of Natalie on the last day we visited with her. After a week of visiting with her she was making eye contact, paying attention to her surroundings, playing, and accepting our touch. She was no longer scratching at us, pushing us away, gnawing on her hands, or crossing her eyes half as much. I'm pretty sure she has reverted back to those coping behaviors-- her ways of stimulating herself, comforting herself, and pushing out the world now that we are not there. Natalie is without the love of a family, and until we return to Bulgaria to get her, she will continue to languish in her orphanage.
We are waiting for good news any day that the MOJ has signed off on our paperwork so we could be assigned a judge. Please pray with us.