John reminded me that we live in the desert. Appropriately so since I feel like I have been wandering in one for the last few months. Funny how I had never made the connection literally until John pointed it out. Thankfully John also pointed out that we are in the desert together.
Since we have moved here, I have yearned for Him more than ever before. Oddly enough, it is in the desert where you are most thirsty. Maybe just maybe we came here for reasons above and beyond John's job.
I said I'd never homeschool, and now I am homeschooling.
I took our doctors and dentists for granted only to realize that God is the One true great Physician.
I always thought there would always be next time to get together with friends and family and now I miss all of them more than words can say.
It has not been easy, even after five months here and it is humbling to still feel overwhelmed by it all. I am normally a very strong woman. But I guess that is prideful, and God knows I need pruning in this area of my life. As I draw closer to Him, I am finding my true purpose in life and that is to love God and allow Him to work in me to further His kingdom. For now, my husband and my children are where He wants me to be, and it took moving to the desert to realize this.
If I am honest with myself I will say that even though I realize this, I still struggle with where He has put me. Like a child who really wants another piece of candy, I want more too. I want to feed the poor, move to Ukraine, open a ranch for troubled teens, fight the injustice, care for orphans, become a missionary-- which is all good, but for now God is telling me to just sit at his feet. Enjoy His presence. Be more like Mary and less like Martha. For now this is where He wants me, so this is where I will be.