My Desire

I wanted to find out more about this book so I clicked on over to the author's blog. That is where I watched this video. It got me to thinking... to say the least.

Oh, to have the desire to follow God's every prompting and be used to further His kingdom.... and then actually living out that desire. May sound crazy... but a part of me envies this man.

His simple lifestyle.
The intimate relationship He has with our Heavenly Father.
The obvious faith he has displayed by trusting God for everything.
His health.
His safety.
His joy.
His patience.
His persistence.

Me?
I notice that something may be wrong with one of the kids and I am all over the Internet researching.... trying to fix it.
Me?
I run to the store because I don't have bread. Well, let me take that back. I run to the store because I don't have French bread-- the right kind of bread for dinner-- because you all know we can't have regular sliced bread with spaghetti.
Me?
I am already looking at sales-- planning on what shoes I am going to buy the kids next year-- when the shoes they have now are just fine.

Me?

I don't even share the joy that I have about our current adoption because I worry that no one understands or shares the same joy.

Sadly, no matter how hard I try, it seems that my life centers around me, me, me. Sure, I can convince others that it doesn't... but in my heart I know it does.

Sally Reed (don't you love her last name?) over at My Life My Desire shared this excerpt on her blog the other day--- and I keep coming back to it.

IS THIS TRUE OF ME?

It is easier to serve or work for God without a vision and without a call,
because then you are not bothered by what He requires. But once you receive a commission from Jesus Christ, the memory of what God asks of you will always be there to prod
you on to do His will.
You will no longer be able to work for Him on the basis of common sense.
Never consider whether or not you are of use - you are His.

For whatever reason it brings me great comfort to know that the desire I have does not need to be common sensical--- and to know that there will always be his gentle prodding to do His will. I am relieved that His vision will always be there so when I do eventually get me act together it will not be too late.

Folks.... it is never to late with God.